Vacations over...

I am back, back to reality, back at work...the fluorescent lights sucking the tan out of me. I slowly feel my tan wilting and that after vacation glow of rest and relaxation fading.

Miami was a good time as always. It was so good to be with my girls, Mary, Linda, and Keiasha. They are my best friends and my heart and soul. Its not very often that the four of us get to be together and I have to tell you our vacation was a lot of drinking, sunbathing, eating, laughing, crying, talking, and dancing. We had fun and it was just all about being with the girls.

It was odd when Keiasha left on Sunday and Mary, Lin and I were still there until Wed., but a few of Lin's friends were there from home and the 5 of us girls continued the party.

We had a routine pretty much down pat for every day:
Wake up somewhere btw 9 and 10 - head to the beach or pool - lay there and eat and drink until like 2 or 3.
Then head up to the room to freshen up a bit and head to the Clevelander (an outdoor bar on Ocean Drive) for Happy Hour from 4-6.
Some days we would hit Wet Willies for more drinks after that or find another spot to drink drink drink up.
Then Dinner.
Then back to the hotel for some showers, some rest, and then head out for the nite....if we weren't too drunk (some nites we were too drunk to even make it out.)

I would have to say my favorite nite was the nite we took our wine down to the beach and just sat there and talked until after the sun went down. I love you girls... I have no clue where I would be, who I would be without you.

Until next year - Greece 2008 - Keeks and Kar's 30th Bday parties!!!

BAJANDO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

let go your heart, let go your head...

Friday night Im going nowhere
All the lights are changing green to red
Turning over tv stations
Situations running through my head
Well looking back through time
You know its clear that Ive been blind
Ive been a fool
To ever open up my heart
To all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule

Saturday Im running wild
And all the lights are changing red to green
Moving through the crowd Im pushing
Chemicals all rushing through my bloodstream
Only wish that you were here
You know Im seeing it so clear
Ive been afraid
To tell you how I really feel
Admit to some of those bad mistakes Ive made

If you want it
Come and get it
Crying out loud
The love that I was
Giving you was
Never in doubt
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now

Babylon, babylon

Sunday all the lights of london
Shining , sky is fading red to blue
Im kicking through the autumn leaves
And wondering where it is you might be going to
Turning back for home
You know Im feeling so alone
I cant believe
Climbing on the stair
I turn around to see you smiling there
In front of me

If you want it
Come and get it
Crying out loud
The love that I was
Giving you was
Never in doubt
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now

Babylon, babylon, babylon

Didn't I just get back from CABO??? VACATION TIME AGAIN!

A week from tomorrow I will be in Miami with my girls!! My 3 best friends from law school and I try to do a yearly trip together and this year Mary, Keeks, Linda, and I are spending a week in Miami together. Last year our trip was to NYC, but for me it wasn't really a trip because I had just moved here, but it was time with my girls!

I love vacation, I love the beach, I love the sun, I love drinks and good times with my girls!! Can't wait!!!

I will miss one person very much though, very much. And YES I AM GOING!!!

So April 18-25th I will be in MIAMI biatches!! Look for a Miami blog when I get back!

HAPPINESS. Just in case anyone was wondering...

I am still over the moon and HAPPY.

yea i have had my freak outs....but just taking it one day at a time. yea my mind has yelled too fast too fast, too much too much, too soon too soon. yea i am still a bit guarded with my heart...

but its all still good, just enjoying the ride while its here. And I thank god everyday that he allowed me to have this happiness. That he allowed me to smile like i have never smiled.

"Sometimes LIFE just hits you over the head and BAM!!! HAPPINESS!!!!"

Since last Wednesday night, when I supposedly "pranced" across the bar. I have been happier than I have been in a really really long time. I feel like this person came into my life for a reason - maybe just to make me feel alive again, to awaken me from that trance I have been in since November or just because he is supposed to be in my life.

One thing I know is that YES I am scared shitless - freaked out beyond belief, but you know what this time - this time - I am going to take it one day at a time and COMPLETELY and TOTALLY ENJOY the HAPPINESS. Just take it for what it is and feel blessed that I had this time of happiness and that this person could make me feel this way - whether it ends tomorrow, next week, next month, next year or maybe never - I just want to enjoy it.

Not saying I am in love - not at all, not really saying much except for I am Happy. Really Happy.

For the first time in a long time I am going to let myself feel truly feel. (and if I have scrape myself of the ground in the end so be it...)

Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.

Carrie: When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?