floating...

This week I just kind of feeling like I have been floating. Floating in thoughts - sometimes to the brink of almost drowning in my thoughts.

I have been working a lot and spending a lot of time with myself. I am sad. Not overtly sad. Just missing someone sad.

I hate when you meet someone and you just click, connect, its all there but for some reason or another it doesn't work out. I was telling my friend last nite that its almost natural instinct to want to pick up my phone and call that person or send a text to that person to tell them things that I would only tell them, that only they would get or understand or think was absurdly hilarious. But I don't, I just sit here at my desk and think those thoughts to myself and no one to share them with.

Well, I have people to share them with but its not the same. I am trying to move past this, climb out of the well and over the wall. but its hard - he made me happy, blissfully happy. I was happy before him and I am still happy without him - but him not being around has made me slightly sad - i hadn't had that kind of blissful happiness in a really long time...but obvioulsy it was not meant to be for whatever reason and I should just appreciate that I had a glimmer of blissful happiness and hope I have the chance to have it again with someone. I mean not very many people get to experience that, right?

Anyways i will be alright...soon...

i guess this is what i want, this is what i thought i could potentially have (the lyrics to my myspace song):

We'll do it all
Everything On our own
We don't need Anything Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
(Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars)


BTW FREAKY - its FRIDAY the 13th!